CZ

So CZ was very concerned with his heart flutter things and has gone to emergency...I can't be there as the kids are in bed and going to school tomorrow.  I asked him to text me what's going on hourly if possible.  He isn't going to work tomorrow because of the emergency tonight, as who knows what is the next step.  I must say I feel stressed about this.  I feel it's going to be ok, but have a small part that tries to rear it's head up and say" he's not going to be ok....he's gonna get real sick...he's gonna die."  I can't listen to it.  Even writing it down seems to have given it more presence.  

It will be better, once is figured out it can work towards a better outcome.  

I need to find myself a Dr I was for myself.  I feel a few things not right, but all little...so it seems..I feel like I'm very forgetful, I have noticed myself dropping things alot, I've been extra tired lately, though I have been getting good sleep most days, today I woke up a little off, like dizzy.  It's only slightly noticeable.  As Java tells me I need to take care of myself as I have a family I need to care for.  I can't think of anything else right now.

I am going now, but I hope  this comes to you well:)